Monday, October 31, 2011

All-Inclusive Interconnectivity








The Brahman Experience-Seat Of Freedom Essay Concluded
Distinctions Of Inside/Outside, Whole/Part, Cease To Be Meaningful
Winter ’80


Nishida went looking for "pure experience" and found it. In a pure
awakened state there is no distinction between transcendence,
immanence, and freedom. The "absolute free will," for Nishida, is at
the center of the creative world and lives through the "pulse of
creative nothingness." He used his own logic to characterize this
claim. To be fair, Nishida did not think of this logic in an
analytical sense, it was more a logic of existence. He called this
logic basho, and for me at least, this basho seems to be describing
three different levels of interconnectivity—the interconnectivity of
three different pulses of freedom.

Freedom is not a manifestation of being, it is the other way around;
out of creative nothingness arises the manifestation of being.
According to Nishida, everything that is, is within the
interconnectivity of the basho, and is at bottom, the basho of
"absolute nothingness." In all bashos a dual purpose is at work. As
the ground of everything, the logic of basho, works to support and
restrict all beings. Absolute nothingness becomes the heart and soul
of all beings, but tied to this basho is an invisible basho, the basho
of relative nothingness. "It," says Nishida, "exists only in relation
to the basho of being. It is the idea that nothingness is understood
in terms of its opposite: the notion of being." Interconnected with
all bashos-- relative nothingness, being, and absolute nothingness—is
the pulsing, creative nothingness that emerges from and returns to the
basho of absolute nothingness. I'm trying to understand this. I'm not
there yet. Here is a description of Nishida's basho as stated by Masaaki:

Nishida defines basho as "a predicate of predicates," a truly
universal, transcendent "place" in which subject and predicate are
mutually inclusive. Only the basho of "absolute nothingness" is truly
transcendent and truly universal. It is the place where the authentic
self turns around and becomes the "self without self." That means that
the "self as the basho" can reflect objects just as they are by truly
emptying itself, and can see things "by becoming things." Thus the
self as basho identifies itself with all beings in the absolute
contradictory mode of the world.

In this vision, “we get a feel" for how to resolve the paradox—the
paradox of how something--pure experience--can be both the source and
ground of being while at the same time been absolutely transcendent.
The being and the beyond distinctions that are present in the Hindu
and Buddhist distinctions of the Brahman/atman, self/not-self, are
dissolved in Nishida's basho. "When self-consciousness is completely
extinguished in the basho" says Nishida, "then the newborn `self as
the basho,' embodying the `unifying force' of absolute nothingness
from within, can fully exert its intrinsic nature as instrument to
become a creative force in the world." In the all-inclusive
interconnectivity of Nishida's basho, distinctions like
inside/outside, whole/part, cease to be meaningful.

It seems to me at least, according to what I am trying to understand
form the above, when everything is seen in full relief "just as it
is," in its suchness, there is an awakening. When all beings are seen
reflected in the absolute creative nothingness of the basho, there is
an awakening. In the experience of the absolute interpenetration of
nothingness with all the particular existents in the universe, there
is an awakening to the "eternal now." There, the distinctions
Brahman/atman, self/not-self, have no place. There, the newborn "self
as the basho," "self as absolute nothingness,'' wakes to perfect
freedom, perfect wisdom and perfect bliss. The fact that language will
not (can not) permit a description of "enlightened being," hasn't made
the paradox any less paradoxical. It's still there, with or without
language. I admire Nishida because of his struggles to get beyond that
paradox. However, I suspect that enlightenment—pure experience—is
necessary before "empty" and "full" can become one, before nirvana and
moksha can become one!

[Essay postscript: I was struggling when I wrote the above, but, intuitively,
I knew there was more to be discovered. I do not remember the date, but I will be posting (describing)—God willing, that experience as my journal unfolds. Here’s the crux of what I discovered:

The first structural liberation occurs between ~~p and ~pp, but the second structural liberation (the one that produces human consciousness) occurs only after a sufficient amount of diachronic evolution has transpired, i.e., a complexity sufficient to allow ~pp to reboot into the more liberated structure of p~p~pp, thus creating time of mind of consciousness, i.e., self-consciousness. The goal of all the above described spiritual disciplines—God by any other name, becomes manifest in the p~p~pp liberation of the “affirmative ideal” —the same “affirmative ideal” that liberated the source of meaningful symbol creation, which, in turn, opened the door to the creation of language, myth, religion, art, theoretical knowledge, and the rest of the civilizing processes that we call civilization.]

The Brahman Experience-Seat Of Freedom








The Difference Lies In Getting There Continues
Winter ’80 pic 3bhag, tat you, w48

The Upanishads teach that liberation will not be found "in outward
movement into the world." It is the inward journey into the self that
permits liberation. According to the teachings of the Upanishads, it
is the longing for meaning and purpose, plus a desire to end human
restlessness and suffering that leads a person down the path toward enlightenment.

The Bhagavad-Gita, gives us another approach to liberation. "He who
knows Atman overcomes sorrow," and here, overcoming sorrow means
practicing yoga. The Gita tells us that the final liberation, the
state where the self-imposed boundaries of individuality are
transcended, is the goal of yoga. In the Upanishad's the yogi is
called away from society, but in the Gita, in order to progress
spiritually, the aspirant is called to duty, in honor of society. The
practices of Karma Yoga and/or Bhakti Yoga (the yoga of duty and love,
respectively), if done whole-heartedly, bring liberation. In the
Bhagavad-Gita the god, Kishna, told Arjuna, the warrior prince, that
his "jiva self," his mind-body self, was not his atman. But, if he did
his duty, if he met the Pandavas, his cousins, on the battlefield
(while remaining unattached to the "fruits" of his actions), then he
would realize his atman and win release (moksha). It was no longer
necessary, taught the Gita, to renounce the world to achieve Brahman.
It should be noted that although the Gita emphases the practice of
Karma Yoga and Bhakti Yoga, it was not critical of other forms of
yoga, e.g., Hatha, Laya, Raja, etc. In that regard, its teachings
remained consistent with the earlier Upanishadic teachings.

To the best of my knowledge, yoga was not a necessary part of the
Buddhist tradition. To attain nirvana, the practices of disciplines,
both mental and physical, were necessary, however. All dharma's led to
the eightfold path, the last of the Buddha's four noble truths. In
addition to "right knowledge," the eightfold path called for ethical
behavior and meditative disciplines. Although some would argue that
the concepts of permanence and immortality were anathemas to the
Buddha, when it came to self-realization, the rejection of illusion,
the elimination of cravings, and the avoidance of narcissistic
preoccupations, the teachings of the Buddha were quite similar to
their Upanishad counterparts. But something else of interest brings
these two traditions together, something not generally talked about.

Brahman, as the innermost essence of reality and the cause of all
diversity, is the source and ground of being, yet it stands absolutely
transcendent to being. As the vitality of the cosmos, Brahman's
dynamic self-expression is an affirmation of the Absolute manifested
in both the individual and the world. For the sage, the claim that
Brahman and atman are one is an identity claim, but, at the same time,
Brahman remains the ground of being while being transcendent to being.
How can this be? The enlightened look to the self, to others, and to
the whole universe and rejoice in Brahman—"Tat tvam asi (That art
thou)." But what is "thou?" For the most part, in both Hinduism and
Buddhism, "thou" is left as a paradox. It is not within the grasp of
language, but it is not out of reach of the self, either. The
comprehension of self (atman in Hinduism, not-self in Buddhism)
implies the comprehension of the universe as a whole—moksha in
Hinduism, nirvana in Buddhism. Knowledge and being are identical here,
and, I believe, by taking a closer look at Nishida's self-awakening
philosophy, we will better understand why this is so.

Last Word On The Disagreement With My Religion Professor







The Brahman Experience-The Seat Of Freedom Continues
The Difference Lies In Getting There
Winter ’80

Well that's about all I have to say about Uddalaka and Yajnavalkya. I
do have a few more observations, though. In lieu of our past
conversations, it seems to me that something is going on here that
needs more attention. I can't help but feel that I'm in the middle of
that "elephant thing." You know, where one blind guy holds the trunk,
and the other blind guys hold the leg and tail, respectively. They all
"see" an entirely different animal, but what they're really "seeing"
is just one big elephant.

Paraphrasing from Hopkin's descriptions of Brahman, consider the
following: The ancient sages of India perceived no chasm between
nature, humanity, and divinity. For the wise among them, all existence
was the manifestation of the universal principle, i.e., Brahman, the source
of all being, the producer and sustainer of all reality. Brahman was
the eternal that created the temporal; it was the uncountable waves of
an incomprehensible ocean.

In Nishitani's Mahayana Buddhism (and with Nishida, his teacher), something
quite similar to the "Brahman idea" is going on. For instance, just as
when Yajnavalkya found at the seat of free will, atman, Nishitani, put
absolute freedom at the core of self. For Nishitani, free will emerged
from and returned to, absolute nothingness. On the surface, absolute
nothingness and Brahman appear to be opposites—empty and full. But are
they really?

Brahman, the Absolute, is beyond all categories of time, space, and
causality. In short, it has no measure other than the fact that it
transcends all measure. Yet, if we believe the sages, Brahman can be
realized and therefore experienced. Nishitani's absolute nothingness,
like Brahman, permeates all things. If the "ripples of Brahman" vanish
back into the "timeless, spaceless, and causeless ocean of Brahman,"
then how is that any different from Nishitani's nothingness that
permeates all things? In the reciprocal case the same holds true.
Waves exist because of the ocean—the ocean being Brahman here.
All things depend on nothingness for their existence—Nishitani’s
nothingness being the source of all existence here. Where's the difference?

The sages in the Upanishads (as does the Buddha) call for the
eradication of all ignorance. We are told that when ignorance is
dispelled, "the infinitely great outside of us becomes the infinitely
great within us," which is another way of saying that our inner self,
atman, merges with our outer self, Brahman. In the Buddhist philosophy
of Nishida's self-awakening, we hear pretty much the same refrain. He
says, "When the ego awakens to its radical finitude--its nothingness,
realization occurs." In all these spiritual teachings we hear the echo
of the "outside" and "inside" becoming one. Again, "at the point of
total openness and freedom," says Nishida, "the self is no longer
separate from, but realizes its oneness with all the myriad things of
the universe." When the ego realizes the illusion of its "I," "me,"
"mine,” and stops seeing itself as an independent entity, it looks straight
through itself and sees "wholeness." Are we really talking about two different
things here? In the Chandogya Upanishad, we hear once again, --upon the
realization of atman, "the formed and the unformed, the mortal and the
immortal, the abiding and the fleeting, the being and the beyond" all
become one with Brahman. In the absolute nothingness of self, says
Nishitani, "you find the convergence of opposites—self and non self,
being and nonbeing, the personal and the impersonal, the unique and
the universal." How often do we have to hear this refrain before the
connection becomes obvious? In Brahman, we find the realization of the
unity of reality. In the "nothingness of the self," according to
Nishitani, we find the dissolution of "all contradictions of the
world, such as inside and outside, one and all, evil and good." In the
yogi's "moksha," and the Buddha's "nirvana," enlightened experience
all, where is the difference? Maybe it-- the difference-- lies in
getting there.

Disagreement With My New Religion Professor







Interchangeable Nature of Religious Concepts?

Dr. Will had a totally different teaching style. Class discussion was
not encouraged. I guess that's why things didn't jell between us. He
didn't like the way I interchanged religious concepts, either. I
finally stopped doing that, but not before, in an assigned paper on
the Upanishads, I continued to discuss what I took to be similarities
in the mystical traditions of Hinduism and Buddhism:

[The authors Uddalaka and Yajnavalkya-- From Wikipedia:
The Upanishads (Sanskrit: उपनिषद्, IAST: Upaniṣad, IPA: [upəniʂəd]) are philosophical texts considered to be an early source of Hindu religion. More than 200 are known, of which the first dozen or so, the oldest and most important, are variously referred to as the principal, main (mukhya) or old Upanishads. The Upanishads have been attributed to several authors: Yajnavalkya and Uddalaka Aruni feature prominently in the early Upanishads.]

The Brahman Experience-The Seat Of Freedom
Hindu Religion Class
Feb. 26, ’80

Uddalaka and Yajnavalkya share in the fundamental view of a timeless,
spaceless, causeless Brahman. This Brahman is the sustaining power of
the universe and is also the essence, or most essential quality found
in human beings. Brahman is beyond description, but is individualized
within a person's identifiable atman (spirit, divine self). Thus the
quest for Uddalaka and Yajnavalkya is to become conscious of their
respective atmans, however, their presentations, concerning the
aspirant's spiritual release, reflect slightly different perspectives.

Uddalaka identifies Braham as "tat tvav asi"—thou art that, thou art
that (Will's lecture, Hopkins p.44). For him, all is Brahman, and
everything else is "maya," karmic illusion. Determinateness
(appearance), for Uddalaka, is all part of the warp and woof of
Brahman. The embodied self–the atman, is only a flicker in Brahman. At
death Brahman and the embodied self merge. However, the trajectory of
that flicker (its karmic consequences) determines whether or not it
will remain in the ultimate, permanent, and undetermined state of
Brahman, or spin back into maya as another karmic-cycled life form. If
the trajectory continues back into maya then another opportunity
arises for the aspirant to work off bad karma. If the trajectory
"flickers out," then sat, chit, ananda-- perfect being, perfect
consciousness, perfect bliss becomes the experience (Will's lecture—on
liberation).

Yajnavalkya takes a slightly different approach. When he talks about
release, he emphasizes desire. For Yajnavalkya, desire fills embodied
states. Wipe out desire, and the world dissolves. Wipe out desire, and
Brahman takes its place. In order to become desireless, one must
desire an end to desire and then act on that desire, and there in lies
the problem. How can one desire something when desire itself keeps you
from attaining the desired affect? But, says Yajnavalkya, as long as
the self—atman--is desired then it is okay to desire, and knowledge,
right knowledge, is what is required in order to desire the self only.
"Knowledge of the self for Yajnavalkya," says Hopkins, "brings an end
to rebirth because it brings an end to desire for anything other than
the self. The self is the one true source of all that has value, and
thus the only true object of desire. Only ignorance of the self could
bring desire for anything else; when one knows the self, there is
nothing more that he could desire. Nothing else need be loved or held
dear, because all else is only a manifestation of the self: 'When the
self is seen, heard, reflected on and known then all this is known'
---Brihadaranyaka 4.5.6" (Hopkins, p. 42).

Through our choice of activities we create karma. For Uddalaka,
Brahman is achieved only when karmic obligations are fulfilled. For
Yajnavalkya, we desire karma until we desire "the indestructible, the
unattached, the unfettered, the insufferable—our atman" (Hopkins
p.39). In other words, for both men, certain kinds of intentional
behavior must be eliminated before one can experience Brahman, and,
typically, a teacher (guru) is sought out to help us achieve this
goal. With the help of this guru, at some point in the educational
process, right knowledge takes the place of ignorance. When this
happens, all worldly desires are left behind. "According to how a
person acts and behaves, so he becomes." (Will's law of karma lecture)
If, however, Brahman is not attained, samsaric existence continues
unabated.

In conclusion, I would like to suggest that in any teaching that calls
for spiritual progress, the most important thing to realize is first,
where you are at, and second, where do you want to go. With that
knowledge all philosophizing stops. You turn in the right direction,
or you go nowhere. It's all in that first step, however small, —in the
direction toward more freedom.

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Lotus Sutra--The Mind Of The Buddha





Miss You Professor Folkart
Summer ‘80

The Lotus Sutra, at least according to some authorities,
was written at about the time of the Buddha, and, as sutras go, it was
quite large. Also, it was considered to be a highly advanced form of
Buddhist teaching. It was only taught to the Buddha’s most prized
disciples. The Buddha taught only “perfect wisdom,” that is, “right
teachings” were taught to the “right disciples” at the “right time.”
In other words, the Buddha taught only what the disciple could comprehend.
It was commonly believed that this “magical ability” to teach effectively to
all who sincerely listened, set the Buddha apart from all other
religious leaders. The Lotus Sutra was unique among sutras because the
Buddha reserved it’s teachings for only the most advanced of his disciples.

Reading the Lotus Sutra, at times, for me, was like reading a comic
book. At other times, though, it was like reading the mind of the
Buddha. It had a little bit of everything in it. It also had a lot
about “who can understand what when.” I’ll leave the heady
interpretations to the Buddhist scholars, but what I could not accept
was the claim by the monk, Nichiren, that the dharma (knowledge) that
led to enlightenment was complete in the recitation of the title of
the Lotus Sutra. The recitation of--Nam Myoho Renge Kyo, or Homage to
the Sutra of the Lotus of the Marvelous Law-- was enough to guarantee
one’s enlightenment. According to the practitioners of Nichiren
Shoshu, chanting nam myoho renge kyo was, in the age of Mappo, the
only “ticket available for enlightenment” because the Dharma of Decline had tainted all
other Buddhist teachings. For the disciples of Nichiren Shoshu, all other
Buddhist dharma was obsolete, so chant, chant, chant,--until the cows come home.

This nasty mix of beliefs (a militant history also accompanied
Nichiren’s proselytizing), turned me off to the Nichiren Shoshu
religion. When I dropped out of the group, I was left with one
disappointment--my relationship with Jean ended, but I stayed in
her yoga class even though it felt a bit awkward until the last class. Jean
was the best yoga instructor I ever had. Something else felt a bit awkward, too.
At work, doing japa, my nam myoho renge kyo mantra made me uncomfortable, so
I decided to switch to the Tibetan mantra of compassion, om mani padme hum, but
after chanting nam myoho renge kyo for ten years, it was difficult to stay focused on
the new mantra. “What the hell,” I thought, “mantras are only tools anyway. Why should
sound syllables matter? The measure of success is keeping the mind focused.” So,
for me, it was back to chanting (thinking) nam myoho renge kyo over and over
and over again and again and again and again!

Immersed in all this fuss over “Who’s Right,” I was ready to move on!
When a new semester at school rolled around, I enrolled in a
Hindu religion class. I was familiar with some of the concepts
already, but I wanted to check out how the new professor taught the
course. My old professor, Professor Folkart, was on sabbatical in
India doing post doctorate work on the Jain religion, so there was a new guy
teaching his Asian religion courses. (Sadly, my professor never
returned to CMU. While riding a motorcycle in India he was killed by a
hit and run truck driver.)

Dishonest Buddhist

Mt. Fuji



Age of Dharma Decline
Summer, ’80

Jean was upset because having not studied under a practicing
Buddhist before I took my vows, I was, according to her, a dishonest Nichiren
Shoshu Buddhist. As a “card-carrying member of the group,” she thought I
should know more than I did. I agreed, and when she volunteered to
teach me, I was more than happy to oblige. Every other week, our
worship group met in a house in Midland (a twenty mile drive), and sitting
before the shrine of Gohonzon, a Japanese lady would lead us in the practice of
Gong Ho, a 15-minute recitation of Japanese script. Everybody chanted
along to the best of their ability. This practice began and ended the
worship session. Not knowing the language, I sat quietly while the
rest, (usually five or six participants) recited Gong Ho. To make a
long story short, I only attended two sessions with Jean and then
politely told her that I didn’t want to continue. I told her I needed
more time to read about the Buddhist sect before I continued my Gong
Ho practice. She was disappointed, but understood, and, as it turned
out, I was disappointed too, but not with Jean, nor even with
chanting, I was disappointed in the literature I found on the Buddhist
sect. I was not impressed.

The main problem with Nichiren Shoshu, for me at least, was that (I’m
actually embarrassed to say this) the followers believed that their
Buddhism was the last word on Buddhism, and by extension, the last
word on all religion. In Japan, around 1262, the monk Nichiren came
to believe that his mission in life was to alert his fellow Japanese
to abandon all other beliefs and religious practices. The last word in
Buddhism, for Nichiren, was to accept the teachings of the Lotus Sutra.
The Lotus Sutra, according to the monk, contained the highest truth of all the
Buddhist teachings, and was the only teaching that could be effective in during
the third and last age of Buddhism or Mappo, -- the Age of Dharma Decline.

Becoming Reacquainted With Nichiren Shoshu Buddhism




Nichiren Shoshu Buddhism
Summer 1980


It was lonely at first. Carin was living in Scotland’s Findhorn commune.
Her parents were excited over the idea. (Actually, I think they were just happy
to scurry their daughter away form me, a nice guy, but not really good
son-in-law material.) At work, I went from midnights to second shift.
My new shift, 4:30 p.m. to 1:00 a.m., helped me deal with Cairn’s
absence. The heavy going at the end of a love affair, those late night
pain hours, became less severe because of work. In fact, I used work time to
practice japa-- mind discipline. For six hours, I would do mental
work. The other two on the job hours, I would read or eat. Since my
work did not require a lot of mental attention, I had lots of
free time to silently repeat the mantra that was given to me eleven
years ago by the Nichiren Shoshu Buddhist group in San Diego. Now I
was really putting my mantra “nam myoho renge kyo” to use.

At that time, I was also taking a yoga class. It met on Tuesdays and Thursdays.
Jean, a graduate student in Art, taught the class and she was a very good
instructor. As it turned out, she was also practicing Nichiren Shoshu
Buddhism. After I told her about my early experience with the Buddhist sect
she said, “It’s not done like that anymore. You were street shockabukued;”
meaning that I became a Buddhist initiate before I had the foggiest notion of what
I was agreeing to. I defended myself by telling her that I had studied Buddhism in
an Asian Philosophy class before I became initiated and, therefore, I wasn’t forced
into doing something that I didn’t want to do. She didn’t agree with me and I had to
admit that I had no idea what made Nichiren Buddhism different from the
Buddhism I had studied in class. As it turned out, there was quite a bit of difference.


Shockabuku http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zAlS_0wNUQg

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Our Beliefs About Realty Are Approximations

Animals were once, for all of us, teachers.
They instructed us in ways of being and perceiving
that extended our imaginations.
We watched them make their way through the intricacies
of their lives with wonder and with awe.





Petrified Wood from Yellowstone hike

Psychology Paper concluded

Experience is constrained; it cannot be separated from intentions.
When I notice my experience, I constitute my experience as an object
in order to notice it. Thus, that intentionality, by necessity, has to
be one of the underlying facets of my experience.

Experience is further constrained by the language I use to identify
and describe it. Language gives to the world a kind of stability that
may, or may not be there. Sense experience, for example, possesses a
kind of indescribability. For instance, the language I use to describe
the removal of a hot cherry pie from the oven will never capture the
whole experience. The smell of a freshly baked cherry pie cannot be
made linguistically clear, yet the language of the experience becomes
primary, thus making the experience itself secondary. At bottom, my
experience is never free from the methods I use to intentionally
constitute it. I would be living in a very different world if it were
otherwise.

Consider for a moment, the idea of temporal span or duration. The
continuity and stability of the world--and ego awareness--depends on this
temporal span, but, my experience is actually discontinuous! Each
conscious moment fades out of existence, while the next emerges only
to fade again and again. What is most notable, but never emphasized,
is the gap between these moments. I do not experience this gap; in fact, I
rarely notice the emptiness that co-exists duration, still, my experience is
made to flow even though it is full of holes and discontinuities.

Thus, I integrate my world and myself in time, but I also integrate my world
in space and, in that space, I find my I-space, which, in turn, is usually
located above the plane of my eyes and assumes responsibility for the
thoughts and images that arise in that space. The experience of a mental
"reaching," "grasping," or "making into something," triggers my
"experiencing I" and, by necessity, both the world and my experience of it
occurs in the clarifying structure of this spatiality. However, I-awareness or
knowingness, need not be bounded by an "I" or a physical body! The TSK
vision challenges our normal habits of perception; it challenges also the
belief of anthropologists that the body is a "thing" somehow inhabited
for the purpose of locomotion. It holds that the true nature of
humanity extends far beyond the limitations we bring to experience.

Recognizing that the world is the play of Space, Time, and Knowledge
speaks to the heart of Being and opens both the world and
consciousness up to a radically different set of alternatives. Any
thought or sequence of thoughts is bound to its origin, both in terms
of its history and intentionality, but that is not the true origin of
thoughts. Our space, time and knowledge is a product of a much more
encompassing and deepening Space, Time, and Knowledge. The true origin
of our thoughts is found there, in the "all encompassing" order. In
fact, according to Tarthang Tulku, if only we could get back to that
"virgin quality" of experience we could become truly free. He says:

"Throughout history, human beings have understood space as being
empty like the sky, and time as the irreversible flow of our lives and
of the seasons. There is an increasing emphasis on the knowledge
appropriate to this space and time—technical and factual knowledge;
the kind you find in an encyclopedia. Holding to this way of knowing
however, limits our ability to enjoy and appreciate life…. (But) Once
we understand Great Knowledge we do not need to change anything. We
recognize that we are part of a vigorous reality that shines through
all petty attitudes and preconceptions. Our `knowing' is fresh, sharp,
and spontaneous. It never needs to reduce the virgin quality of
experience to something that is `known' and therefore unworthy of
closer attention and appreciation."

In the TSK perspective--a vision not bound by a subject-object
relation-- time is not perceived as the stabilizing condition of the
world. And further, in that vision, experience is not always "of
something." The focus is rather on the emptiness at the heart of
experience--on the pervasive experience of an empty awareness. The TSK
experience—what could be called the ground or source of all specific
awareness’s—emerges out of and returns to that open, empty
awareness-space. The petty concerns of our daily lives prevent our
participation in the great feeling that is Time-Space-Knowledge, a
feeling within which we find space and meaning, time and change, and
knowledge and clarity.

Questioning The Constraining Aspect Of Experience

Deep silence of the candle as an abyss of desire
Like rivers stream forward and then back again
To feel the favor of death – it is godlike feeling




Psychology 735 Paper

Our beliefs about realty are not `wrong,' they're simply
approximations of the way things are. Everybody, at one time or
another has had an altered space-time experience. That experience can
expand into experience of a higher order—experience that is not
dissociated or fragmented. In that "place" is found the liberation
that accompanies freedom from a persisting, independent, isolated
self. In that "place" there is nothing to get, nothing to discard, and
no place else we need to go. Tarthang Tulku says it this way:

"Through our bodies we can embody the full and infinite perfection of
Being: we can participate intimately in the interpenetration of all
reality, Being alive is like being invited to enjoy ourselves in a
beautiful garden where every sight and sound blends in perfect,
inexpressible harmony. Through our embodiment we can embrace this
precious opportunity, and merge with the perfect equilibrium of time,
space and knowledge."

After taking the Time-Space-Knowledge class, the "act of dissolving
into an opening" stopped sounding so strange. Opening to the
possibility of experience without carrying along "excess baggage" was
what the class taught us. Getting back to "raw experience" may sound
easy, but that was only to the uninitiated. In fact, the discovery of
"raw experience" had to be measured in incremental levels. In class we
talked about the phenomenological investigations that had revealed the
clinging baggage that, for the most part, remained invisible.

Dissolving Into The Opening Of What Is





Psychology 735
Summer ‘79
Kum Nye

In Kum Nye practice there were three stages of unfoldment. In the
first stage an increased familiarity with body, thoughts, feeling, and
emotions occurred. Observing the levels of mind and the mechanism of
our ordinary consciousness was more the focus of the second stage, and
the last stage involved the actual transformation of negative energy
into positive energy. Because this was only an introductory class
there wasn't enough time to develop the stages. It was enough to find
out that they could be developed. I especially paid close attention to
the exercises at the second stage because they dealt with observing
the mechanism behind our ordinary consciousness, and that had always
been what interested me the most.

According to the TSK vision, our nature had an immense depth to it and
we could open to that depth. That vision challenged what, typically,
got understood as time, space, and knowledge. Opening a person up to
time, space, and knowledge, as opposed to what customarily got
experienced—the constraining aspects in one's time, space, and
knowledge—-- was what the practice of TSK was all about. Unlike most
paradigms, which defined reality, the TSK vision was about revealing
different aspects of reality by generously giving of itself without
ever altering or losing its own nature. In the end, it dissolved
itself in the opening up to what is, or at least that's what Dr. Beere
told us was supposed to happen. The exercises were all about getting
in touch with that new level of awareness.


Opening To Time, Space, And Knowledge

Ancient song
Call me home
Let me flow without time
Let me see in the light
Let me sound in the deep
Let me soar in the Silence
…of the Ancient Voice



Psychology 735
Summer `79

My how time gets away; I let the summer of ’79, the summer
before Carin and I took our Yellowstone trip, slip by without
a mention. Well, not to worry; these next four posts will catch me
and everybody else up. Actually, it was a productive summer!

It began with a workshop. The Psychology Professor, Don Beere, had
brought Larry Simmons to CMU to do the workshop on Time, Space, and
Knowledge (TSK). The lama, Tarthang Tulku, Rinpoche, had trained Larry
to spread his vision. The lama, from Eastern Tibet, was well educated
in all traditions of Tibetan Buddhism and authored the book, Time,
Space, And Knowledge, which expressed a new way of understanding the
nature of reality. In 1973, the lama established the Nyingma Institute
in Berkeley, California, the purpose of which was to provide a place
for the interaction of ancient wisdom with modern ideas. The Institute
offered an environment for meditation, self-growth, and intellectual
development. The primary person responsible for teaching and
presenting the TSK vision was Larry Simmons and he was also the person
who taught others how to give the workshops. For me, the workshop was
interesting and fun, but it was also just too much information
presented too quickly.

Not long after I attended the workshop, Professor Beere offered a
university class in Time, Space, And Knowledge. We (I was allowed to
sit in on the class) were taught how to release physical and mental
stress as part of the overall program that involved students in both
mental and physical levels of study. According to Tarthang Tulku, the
physical body was not a `fixed object' it was essentially flowing and
open. Using the books Time, Space, And Knowledge and Kum Nye, we
learned techniques for participating in the ongoing process of
`embodiment' of energies, which, according to Tarthang Tulku, made for
healthy bodies and clear minds. Those exercises included breathing
techniques, slow movements, self-massage, chanting, self-image,
concentration, and group process work—all of which were supposed to
put a person in touch with his or her own creative potential, as body,
mind, and emotions engaged the TSK vision. When one's energies were
made to flow more freely, clarity of vision was supposed to result,
and, for the most part that was exactly what happened.

Saturday, October 22, 2011

To The Good, Better, Divine In All Of Us --SALUTE


Whispers of the north
Soon I will go forth
To that wild and barren land
Where nature takes its course
Whispers of the wind
Soon I will be there again
Bound with a wild and restless drive
That pulls me from within
And we can ride away
We can glide all day

Alone In My Apartment
So Long Old Friend
Winter of ‘79

A long time ago, I attended a lecture in Warner Auditorium. The
keynote speaker was an authority on value theory. I had hoped to learn
something from him, but I didn't. After the talk, as was my custom, I
went up to where the speaker took post lecture questions from the
audience. A Professor of mine, who himself had some original ideas on value
theory, was in the crowd. When he noticed me, he immediately came over
and started apologizing to me. He was apologizing for something he
felt uncomfortable about, something that he said to me the last time
we were together.

On that last time, I was taking his class, and, as was his style, he had
just posed a question to the class. I was not satisfied with the
class discussion of that question, so, after class, I went up to
him and asked, "What is the arête of man?" I was simply repeating
back to him the question he had asked the class to respond to. He
wouldn't (or couldn't) answer my question. (Arête is a Greek word
relating to purpose: the arête of a bow is to shoot straight.)

Do to circumstances beyond my control, I never returned to the Professor’s
class (I quite school and moved to Arizona) and because of my absence from
his class, my Professor had jumped to the conclusion that his teaching
method—his silence back when I asked him to respond to his own question,
had caused me to drop out of his class. He was wrong!

Now, upon my return to CMU, and standing in the crowd surrounding the guest
speaker on value theory, Dr. Gill wanted me to know that his silence to my question
was not surrender to the question concerning "man's lack of arête." Dr. Gill said,
“My silence back then was to make the point that the only person who can answer
that question is you!" What Dr. Gill was saying is that “a person's arête was always
peculiar to one's unique situation at the time of posing the question.” Dr. Gill was
apologizing to me because he had not answered my question; that is, until that very
moment, and at that moment, he completely won me over. I knew myself to be
standing in the presence of a man of impeccable character and generosity.
I continued to sit in on Dr. Gill’s classes until he died of cancer on Oct. 23, 1979.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Life Is Sweet, Goodbyes Are Tough





Lead, South Dakota
Oct. 25, 1979


After a breakfast of campfire eggs and bacon, Carin and I headed back
to Michigan. By late afternoon we pulled into the campground at the
foot of the Big Horn Mountains. It was located at the entrance to
Tensleep Canyon, the same canyon where I had an "out of body experience"
on a previous bicycle trip.

The next day, after a long day's drive, we pulled into Lead, South Dakota.
While there, I renewed my acquaintance with—the Barrios Family.
Sitting in Javier's living room brought back lots of memories, maybe a few too
many. However, drinking beer with Vicky and Javier, while listening to Leon
Russell sing Hank William's Good Night Irene on the stereo, made it
all worthwhile. I knew I was about to say goodbye to Carin (maybe
forever), but I also knew that I had said goodbye to Carole Sue from
on top of these same Black Hills--many times over. Life had a way of
repeating itself, whether you wanted it to or not, but sitting with old
friends while listening to great music got you through it! Drinking
my beer, I knew full well that when Leon was through singing, it would
be the Grateful Dead's turn. Javier would see to that!

Nov. 1979

Carin's parents just left my place and took their daughter with them.
The emotional good-byes were short and sweet. In the next few days she
will board a plane enroot to Finhorn, a colony of people tending a
"magic garden" somewhere in Scotland. Carin and I never made promises
to each other. We lived together for almost a year and
half. We loved and respected one another. Many times in the past we joked about
getting married. I think it was back in July that I tried to get
serious about it, but her response was a silent, icy stare. I dropped
the idea after that.

She was 22, a free spirit, and ready for independence. I had just
turned 31 and was four years into the not so sensational work of
self-development. Carin graduated "summa cum laud" while I, after
twelve years, had just received my degree. Her life was just getting
started, while mine meant little more than a scratch on the wall of
another day. Our "getting together" would have, most likely, violated
some kind of natural law. I guess that's why we chose not to talk
about it. I knew there would be no Carole Sue type break down or
collapse for me. If I had learned anything from my experience with
C.S., it was how not to let something like that happen again.

Just before Carin and I went on our vacation, I was sitting in on yet
another class taught by Professor Gill. In the past, I had sat in on
full semester classes taught by Dr. Gill in-- The Philosophy Of
Literature, Myth, and Spinoza. I had also spent truncated time in the
classes he taught concerning Value Theory, Plato, Zen and Symbolic
Logic, and Freedom. In all but the last couple classes, I challenged
him at every opportunity. I needed to know what he knew. What I
finally concluded was that John Gill was not an instrument conveying
knowledge, but rather, as a teacher exuding great sensitivity, i.e., he was
a deeply emotional, educational, experience. After I got back from my
vacation with Carin, I found another Professor teaching his Freedom
class. John Gill died of cancer on October 23, 1979. He was 69 years old.

Mt. Teewinot Magic Comes Through Again







Teton National Park
Sept. '79

After Madison, we drove down to the Teton Mountains, just south of the south
Yellowstone entrance. The weather remained good, but at Colter Bay
Campground it was a little crowded for my taste anyway. The next day we drove
down to the Jenny Lake. The first time I had camped at Jenny Lake I
climbed Mt. Teewinot and lost my wallet, but found it the next day.
The second time I camped there, it was late fall, and I almost got
frostbite on my ass. I met this sex-starved nurse from Seattle, but
of course, I didn't tell Carin that. This time around, the weather was
beautiful, and I was enjoying it with the woman I loved. This was
going to be our last stop before we headed home. We planned to make it
a rest stop. But the Tetons had a way of reinvigorating even the weak
and lame. After resting a day, Carin suggested we climb Mt. Teewinot.

I didn't try to change her mind (I knew the mountain would do that for
me), but I did suggest that we check out a few of the sights before
the big hike. She agreed, so we hiked up to Hidden Falls and
Inspiration Point—absolutely beautiful scenery. On the third day we
headed out to Mt. Teewinot and managed to climb up to a waterfall.
From that height, we had an excellent view of the surrounding
countryside. Carin agreed that we had climbed high enough. The best part
of the whole trip turned out to be spending that day on the mountain, just the two of us.
What a memorable, beautiful, hot sunny day, that was!

Back at the campground, we had an early dinner and then went for a
drive hoping to see some wildlife. Perhaps it was the dryness, or
perhaps we were unlucky, but we didn't see any animals. In fact, on
this trip the sum total of all the wildlife we saw was: three cow
moose, one calf, a coyote and a buffalo. In the backcountry we did
hear the sounds of some distant bugling elk, but unfortunately we
didn't get to see any.